Meat Lovers

Been reading through the One Year Bible. For me, it's the best way to get a consistent, and BALANCED diet of God's Word! I have to have a plan. And I also really like the fact that it forces you to read the parts you might otherwise skip. One of these sections is in Numbers 11 and it stirred a prayer inside of me.

In Numbers 11, Moses and the Israelites are in the wilderness on the way to The Promised Land, and the Israelites begin complaining to Moses and God...again. They're tired of manna. They wish they had meat and all the other stuff they ate back in Egypt while they were slaves.

Never mind the fact that God has delivered them from Egypt, performed wonders on their behalf, leads them with His visible presence, defeats every enemy they encounter, has redeemed them and made them a covenant people, and is taking them into their the Promised Land that He swore to give their ancestors Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob. The menu God is serving doesn't suit them!

So God, in one of His more sarcastic moments says, "You want meat? Ok, How about meat for a month until you gag on it!" God then proceeds to cover them in quail. The people gorge themselves on it, and later that place is named Kibroth-hattaavah (Graves of Gluttony).
So the prayer I found myself praying is: God, don't give me what I want, but what you will! I think sometimes the worst possible thing that could happen to us is for God to give us what we want! The truth is that most of the time we don't even know what we want. What we think will make us happy doesn't. What we think is better isn't. What we think we can't live without ends up killing us. It's incredibly freeing to realize that God knows what's best for me. I don't have to figure that out. I just have to trust Him, knowing that He is working all things for my good, and that no matter what happens I'm a step closer to my destiny (as Pastor Deven has been speaking recently).

I ask God to order my steps...Close the wrong doors and open the right ones...Lead me in every way...Connect me with the right relationships as only He can...Give me Divine appointments...Don't give me what I want, but what He wills! (By the way, Not My will, but Your's be done sounds familiar...)

-Ben